Monday, August 4, 2008

Why I have Not Been On

I have been in the mood nor have I had the energy to be on the Internet. I have been bombarded with migraines again. I have been going to the doctors and they even sent me to a neurologist. I am on more pain meds than I care to count. No they can not all be taken at the same time. I have to try one then the other then they other. If it is really bad to start with, which is easy for me to tell, I take the morphine right away. Last week Wednesday I was tested for a brain tumor. I was so terrified. I went a whole week before the test. I remember it was a Monday when they told me they were going to test me for it. It took the whole day to sink in. By that night I freaked out. I never even said a word to my husband. I broke down and called my little sister, Chris. After talking to her I then told my husband. I never told my sons about it because I did not want them to worry after everything we have been through as a family. I kept picturing what my little cousin Cloin went through. I knew I would never in a million years have the courage he did as young as he is and the age I am. He had more strength than I have in my whole huge fat body. I got the results today and my MRI was normal. My three angels were watching over me. Did you ever wonder where I got this email faith.angels.3 that is where: Breanna, Colin, And Triniti. Now the thing is to find out how to control this pain. They are trying a medicine called Topipax which I will take daily. So by the time I am finally up to the dose they want lets hope it works because I am not a fan of morphine. Today was the first time I took that in a week in a half to two weeks.