Greener on the other Side?

Is the grass always greener on the other side? Have you ever watched Trading Spouses? Different but interesting show. I personally could not do this even if it is for $50,000.00. We all seem to think other people have it better than we do but really do they. It may look like it from the outside but what is it like from the inside of their lives? I know people that seem to have more money than god but yet they are so far in debt. Some people seem to be able to travel and go everywhere they want but can they afford it? Then you see people with no money, home, clean clothing and yet they seem happier than some. Are they happy this way is it a front they put on. Or were they once richer than they are and lost a job, gambled away their life? I live in a nice house, to me, and my bills get paid but there are many things we need to improve our house and life. Should we get all bent out of shape because we can not afford it now or maybe never or do we do the best we can with what we have. If we get everything we want in life then where would we get things to dream of having or wanting. Would we even have dreams anymore. What is important to some people is not important to others. Some people want riches and monetary things. Other people are happy with having a healthy loving family. Do I wish for better things? Yes it is only natural. Do I want to win a $100,000.00 on Deal or No Deal. Yes and No. With more money comes more bill and problems. Without it you can not pay off bills you would like to or give special things to loved ones. I feel my life is greener just by having my loved ones in my life or having known some of my loved ones a short time. A short time by them loved ones gave me terrific memories of a life time that I would not trade for anything. And as for my loved ones still here creating memories with them is priceless. So I am content in my life rich or poor for just having people to love and be loved by.

Ok I hurt my back at work and had to come home from work yesterday and ended up in the ER last night. Not fun the grass her could be greener. LOL

Nevaeh

I hope you enjoy all these as much as I did. Wait I do not think it is possible. I wrote a little more further down.

I just wanted to share some pictures of my very missed grand daughter. Jordan saw to it that when he was home on leave in March that her parents got her baptized.

Anxiety

Wow, I have been so taken off guard today. I awoke off and on all night. I could just not sleep. At 4 this morning I started to scrub my tile floors down stairs with a scouring pad, mind you my husband scrubbed yesterday afternoon. It took my 2 hours to do it. We have tile in the upstairs and did that too. We have the hard tiles and if you drop something it could crack them. Nice to have when you live with a klutz's like me. Needless to say you could eat off my floors today. Yeah I am having a full blown major anxiety attack. WOW I have not had one off those in a very long time. Long enough I almost forgot what it was like. It even kept me home from work today. I am the supervisor so that tells you how much I call out. It is slowly getting better as my day goes on. Well I am going to make one of Tanya's recipes to help keep my focused today. I knew I checked out this blog for a reason. Tanya you may be miles and miles away but you are helping me today. I keep telling myself it could be worse. I sure know that is true so I am just taking my day minute by minute. I have a very understanding husband and that helps me too. Well I am off to make something famous from Tanya. Thanks to her I have something to do besides clean what doesn't need to be cleaned.

Marriage

Doug and I were married a year on the 22nd of May. The time sure went by fast. It is hard to believe that I have been out here for over 2 years now. We sure have been through our ups and downs. I was married for 13 years in my first marriage and already I have had more happy times with Doug than the first time I was married. I sometimes wonder why my first marriage did not work and I have come to many conclusions. None of which really matter anymore. All in all I know I did a great deal of growing up in the 8 years I was a single mom. I was not mature enough the first time that is for sure. It takes two so it was not all me. I have learned to deal with things with a great since of responsibility. When I say it takes two I really mean it. You can not do it all by yourself and you sure should not bring other people into it as they all will side with the person they are friends with related to or whatever.
Doug has taught me so much about life and relationships that I though was all fairy tales. Do not get me wrong my life is not all roses but it is so much better and I actually enjoy life. I sure miss my children though. Doug is very head strong and that was hard to get used to but he has this soft gental loving side to him that is so very awesome. I never realized a guy could be like this. I see what Tanya has found in Rich. I was always amazed at their relationship. Mine is not like that totally but so close. It really help to have that kind of companionship with your spouse. It makes life so much better and easier. When you are happy life is so much better. I give god all the credit. I thought god never wanted me to be happy. It is so true he answers us when he is ready.